I guess I'm really writing this for myself but for anyone interested, enjoy reading
To be clear I ain't gonna lie to you lads
War is fucking scary,
You go in with a Rambo mindset, feel invincible, all the bravado and squad moral is high through the fucking rough
04:40 am
Sirens Blair, waking up haven't even botherd to change clothes
We've got an alert there's a squad of Hamas terrorists who was spotted coming out of a tunnel near a settlement
This is it, it hits me, I might not come back.
Adrenaline and fear are fueling you like 500mg of Adderall, it seems like a am hour has passed but in reality it was a quick 5 minutes drive
Here we go this is it.
Nothing ... No sounds, no gunshots just silence.. and then it happens, squad lead tells us to keep formation. I know he has been given information, probably where they are hiding an.. a deafening cacophony erupts, orders are precise
You go full auto
Spot the muzzle flash from a low brush - don't think twice just shot.
Target down I yell, the firing keeps coming, and the squad leader yells to rush them
I keep on sprinting,within seconds we see the guys
They are no older than 20, I can look into this tucking kid in the eye
He falls down
Shot by my one of the squad member.
They fall back, we take cover and a grande is thrown over at them.
My ears are already bursting, but fuck I feel the explosion more than I hear it.
No time to waste,, once again we rush in formation
They're laying down, moving, I think one was still screaming in agony.
4 bursts and I know it's over. They are dead.
Once finally back in base I call my mom. Tell here nothing's going on, I've been placed in this boring Outpost mama, yeah I've just woken up, tell dad I love him.
I'll make sure to make another call later on ma, have a good day.
I don't know what to say.
I'm still alive, that boy is not.
You're a hero they say, why doesn't it feel like that?